HEY BABE,
I’M OLIVIA
Just your wellness-loving, coastal-living, yoga-practicing, surfer babe and best foodie friend who’s integrated Ayurvedic Health Coaching, Sensual Embodiment, and Reiki Mastership - inviting you to be seated on the throne of your highest self.
Kind of obsessed with initiations, transformations, and don’t worry, your girl didn’t forget… embodiment!!
I wasn’t always the fun loving, bright, embodied woman you see before you today…
From giving it all away to reclaiming my throne
My Evolution
As a bullied child, I grew into a young adult who was the master of disguise. I’d chameleon myself into whatever people deemed ‘cool’. This shaped the activities I participated in, the music I listened to, the way I dressed myself, and especially the way I approached sexuality.
I was utterly terrified of being alone and abandoned, and felt unworthy for people to stick around just being me. You know, that good old total self abandonment in search of worthiness journey.
What do I think? Oh, I agree with you!
What do I want to do tonight? Whatever you want.
Where do I want to go? I’ll just follow along.
I held back everything that was unique or special about me. I endured shallow friendships, sexual abuse, deceit, loneliness, and as a young woman learned that I could use my body in exchange for the attention I so desperately sought. Suddenly, I found that sex was my currency to buy the delusion that I was ‘enough’ — at the very high price of a piece of my Soul to anyone buying.
The Divine has beckoned me my entire life…
it just took me deciding to see it within myself first.
My father, a devoted qi gong practitioner and teacher, originally taught me there is more to this world than meets the eye. He was always providing me with spiritual reading material and inviting me to question the narrative the world imposed on me, but I was too concerned with trying to be well liked to take it too seriously.
My college years I attended a school founded by a Buddhist meditation master. I studied yoga with real yogis from India, and was surrounded by like-minded people wanting to heal and make a difference in the world. I wanted to make a difference too, but being a party girl was taking priority.
Throughout my journey I was met with glimpses of alignment and magical moments that were too hard to ignore
I knew in my bones a piece was missing and yet…
I allowed my human traumas to get in the way.
One day, after a particularly brutal break up with the most formidable of exes, I found myself moving home, broke, alone, with no direction or plans. Returning to my Soul-less life, I was ready to once again lose myself, disappear into another, and hide.
this is all I knew.
Nature, a joint, and a journal…
I had always found solace in the outdoors. Peace, tranquility, and somewhere to smoke a joint without my parents finding out. Summer 2016, I decided that on my way to the park, I was going to buy a journal. I had never journaled before, nor had a diary as a young girl. It felt so weird to write to no one at first, but as the pen flew off the paper I got to know myself.
For the first time in my entire life I started to reflect and process my experiences, with none other than myself. I wasn’t comparing my thoughts with someone else’s, I wasn’t writing to impress anyone — It was just me, the pen, and the paper. Here, I found that my own inner Self, was actually worth getting to know.
I dove back into a yoga practice. And not just for a lazy work out, or the yoga booty — No, this time, I started practicing yoga to go to Church…
to come home to myself.
As I began to consistently feel better, and see my life changing, I wanted to guide other lost people, like I once was, to find their way to this feeling too. So, I finally put my yoga degree to use and started teaching.
Yoga was just the beginning, it brought me where I needed to be and I eventually took another training and was offered a full time teaching job on a cute little island off the coast of North Carolina.
As if life couldn’t have gotten any more Hallmark Movie… I found myself a cute surfer boyfriend, and we all lived happily ever after… right?
Nope, in the midst of my first seemingly healthy relationship as a “healed person” I found myself repeating old patterns: blending in with my boyfriend’s taste and friends, partying until late, only to get up and teach Hot Power Yoga hungover.
Knowing that feeling in my body of being “lost”… I knew I couldn’t just keep going through the motions, waiting for magic to unfold without doing the work and holding myself accountable. So I called upon my trusty friends: my journal and my yoga mat. It worked last time, it’ll be easy I told myself.
But it didn’t…
I needed something bigger.
I needed to look within, and search deeper.
Something that could hold me.
Something I could connect to the infinite wisdom of the Universe through…
Here I found my greatest teacher:
my body
When I found my body, I also attuned to a series of communications from it saying that it was unhappy, but more so… untended. I experienced PMDD, pain during sex, a series of infections, severe eczema and I knew I needed to listen in ways I hadn’t yet known how to.
Introducing Ayurveda…
Yoga was my mind church.
Ayurveda became my body church.
While studying Ayurveda, I found safety in my body. My symptoms were no longer annoying things to be medicated — but rather threads of information on how to heal the deeper wounds in my body. As I followed each thread, I found healing. As I found healing in my inner world, my outer world started to expand, it got better, easier, more magical.
My personal practices evolved, where I used to tell my body what to do and where to go, it was now the one asking me what to do and where to go. I shifted from telling to listening, doing to being, pushing to trusting, forcing to flowing.
My church became a time of following the lead of my body and allowing it to move me off the mat, and into the flow of life, it became a dance.
And that's what I began to do with my life, I danced.
Yes quite literally dance, and move, and shake.
And in a dance, we allow our bodies to lead us.
This is not the path of logic, but somatic intuition.
The things I used to run away from became opportunities to learn a new dance to a different rhythm that expanded my personal awareness.
After my years of abusing my body I finally found a way to reclaim it. I could allow my body to move me in sensual ways for no one other than myself. Just as my first journal turned my inward for the first time, sensual movement turned me inwards, to a world of depth I hadn’t known.
My sensuality, which I had treated as if it belonged to someone else, was finally mine for the first time.
I allowed myself to explore what it could be like to express my sensuality without a goal in mind, or another person involved. This expression, this rawness of me was for ME only.
I transformed before my own eyes, a once fearful chameleon in hiding to a sensual soulful being with an insatiable thirst for more.
This is the path of Soul Embodiment
Integrating your shadows
Listening to your body
Believing in magic
SITTING IN THE SEAT OF YOUR HIGHEST SELF
Are you ready?
credentials n’ stuff
Naropa University: Bachelor’s Degree in Traditional Eastern Arts with a concentration in Yoga
Village Yoga: Kunga Yoga Teaching & Lifestyle Certification
Yoga Alliance: Certified ERYT 200, ERYT 500, & YACEP
The Shakti School: Ayurvedic Health Coach
Ascension Studio: Reiki I, II, & Master
Sensual Somatic: Sensual Embodiment Facilitator